gauzy

to lie, to think, to want, it hurts
big fat tears like zeroes - grading my life
drying my skin into cracks in the desert floor
small sneaky ones too that slide down and tickle the nose
i had attention i had attention
mercury, rolling dropping never staying
will i ever make it to the junction
of who i am and what i want
the splendidness of time and joy
seemed never-ending, maybe to fade
but never disappear